today is suppose to be a happy happy day. but somehow, i still feel mildly depressed. one lil sad/bad thing can ruin an entire an entire world of happiness. oh wells...

i am still very very very grateful for my parents giving me what i want (most of the time) and giving me a big big christmas/new year prezzie, exactly what i wanted, kinda. and my super "cool" haircut, no one laughed at me so far, other than receiving some jaw dropping kinda stares. and getting act cool shades at last. hahaha. exams are over. getting a fat ang pow from my grandpa for a fully sponsored trip by my mum. my dad giving me another sub card of my choice. life should be real good for me now. but strangely, i don't really feel the joy of it. i mean i did grin spasticly to myself for maybe 5mins or so today, apart from that, i just felt blah all day. bleah. am i sinking into depression or what.