incase you're wondering what's prorsum, it means forward. it's actually a line from burberry la. hahah. but i liked the meaning and the way it sounds. i guess i'm at a point of my life where i need to make a great leap forward. transition from jc to uni's a really big thing, at least for me. i've always looked forward to university, i thought it'll be fun and i'll be doing something i chose for myself for once, and hopefully i'll like it. but since it's my choice, i actually have to bear all of the responsibility. in sec school, there isn't really any where else i can go anyway, so if the system sucks, i can just blame the govt, like everyone else does. then when it comes to jc, my parents half forced me to go to jc instead of poly, and my subject combi was pretty much chosen for me too, other than lit. so, i can always blame my parents for this too. i actually did blame my mum for forcing me to take chem. i feel really bad about it now though. =/ i can't believe making my mum feel guilty at that point actually made me feel a little better about myself. but it was just so immature i know :( i'm so sorry mummy! (haha, not like she reads this. or i hope she doesn't! i just feels so weird. hahaha.) but i really really really hated chem! or just science in general. anyways, i'm kinda in the course and uni of my choice this time. sooo... i really've got no one to blame now! if i screw up, it'll be my fault, only. sigh sigh. although i tell myself the same thing everything i move on to a new level of education, to start fresh and work hard this time! but it never fails to end up the same way. slacking all the way and trying hard to cram everything in at the final bit. i've been pretty lucky so far, but i'm not sure if my luck will sail me through uni life. argh, wong simin ah, please please please study hard this time :( it's the most important lap!!! and i guess the orientation is actually making me feel like uni's really close! i feel so much like a uni student now! really thank God my social science orientation turned out fine, so i've started uni with a good start! i suck so much at making friends k! it's just plain awkard for me. i bet everyone probably thought that i'm a freak initially k! maybe i really am la, but at least not the scary kind k! haha. at most i'm just a little weird. i'm so glad i managed to look a little more friendly during this camp! unlike the one in j1, my OG was like... scared of me. hahahaha. i think i gave off a very very very scary vibe. but for this camp, someone actually said her first impression of me was that i seemed like a very nice person! hehehe. but some of them (two to be precise) actually said i have the "i love pink!" face O_O you know how traumatising it is if you know me. hahaha. wells, i guess this is the start of my uni life la. feels like a whole new life actually! i'm not very good with changes. but i hope it'll be fine this time!!! so far i'm still pretty glad that i chose smu and social science la. i really hope i won't regret it! sigh, it just sucks that no one's in with me :( i guess it's time for me to grow up and get out of my comfort zone! please let uni be great!!!

i think i'm past my moving on stage and now i need to go forward! prorsum! xD hahaha. uni here i come!

ok, i suddenly realise uni is still a bit far away la. hahahaha. maybe i'll have another entering uni post nearer to 17 aug! i don't know why am i feeling so hyped up now!!!

ohhh, thumbs up if you actually read the first looooooong para! haha.