argh. got back my chem paper today, i'm so screwed. who on earth gets 10% for chem when they actually studied for it?! bleahs, looking at it was enough to make me cry in class... thank God i didn't. i expected myself to get a U, maybe around 20%? 10 was alot worse than expected. and to add salt to the wound, my tutor said quite a number of people actually scored As and Bs in the level. i'm hopeless. taking chem was a big mistake. so is coming to jc. but serve me right for sleeping through every single chem tutorial and lecture. ahh... i should wake up, pay attention in class and study!!! but easier said then done. i tend to lose the motivation after a while. thinking of taking up chem tuition and hopefully i'll pass chem for A levels.

and i failed maths too. though it's kind of expected, but it's still quite sad.
midyear's really demoralising! i'm so tempted to give up...

oh wells, A levels cannot be avoided, i need to get through it!
it's a river i must cross. a mountain i must climb, and failure would mean doom.

today was a horrible horrible day. and i believe there are many more to come. sighs.
ok, decided to take back one horrible, since today's a short day.

grr. i hate it when i'm so easily affected by things.