bleah... am i dumb or what?!
i drank 2 full cups of water without eating my medicine!!!
DUMB DUMB DUMB!

going out for lunch now.
shall blog more when i get back. bye

ok, i'm back, and it's already 11pm. haha

i actually forgot to take my medicine again! only remembered to eat it until i saw this entry.

yar yinghui, i'm sick to some extent. having allergies or whatever. but now, i don't think it's really allergies, since the medicine given by the doctor isn't really working.

ok, shall continue...
had on friday and saturday.
and as sharon said "you pon sch to skip retreat then in the end you went!"
yar, in short, i ponned school(to some extent) to skip retreat, and i went in the end (yes ong ong, i actually did that)

err... i wasn't feeling very well last week, or should i say, a couple of weeks. i had some kinda sore eye. my eyes were feeling really itchy or painful. so i kept rubbing and touching it. and so... my eyes were kinda puffy and swollen. and my mum said i have wrinkles from rubbing!!!! =x and i developed some kinda rash or what ever. so... i went to see a doctor on friday, and i HAPPEN to be able to MISS school and retreat because of that. the doctor gave me with mc for both friday and saturday! which meant that, i don't need to go for the catholic retreat which i've always dreaded.

after seeing the doctor, i went home and i slept. white sheep called and woke me up from me sleep, she told me that we're actually in the same group and bunk O_O it's like... such a coincidence lar. like, i really thought that it was impossible for us to be in the same group. sharon said that she didn't know anyone and ask me to fly there to keep her company. miraculously, i found a really old and ugly sleeping bag that my mum doesn't even know of it's existence.(so i thought maybe God wants me to go. haha). so eventually... she actually manage to bah me into going. threw everything into my bag and "flew" to school. my mum got quite pissed that i actually did that -.- when i think of it now i think i'm kinda pissed with myself too. how can i be so indecisive! i guess there's a lesson learnt from this. and that is, make a decision and STAY WITH IT! for a moment, i thought i wanted to stay at home. and at the next moment, i'm actually in school. it's kinda unbelievable.

ok, when i reached school, i was greeted by tanjecksuan(don't know how to spell his name. he's our vp). he asked me why i was late, so, i told him i wasn't feeling well and i went to see a doctor. and he nearly sent me home -.- but then, he agreed to let me in after that. i joined group 12 while they are playing ice breakers. i only played the animal farm game. we were blindfolded and suppose to find our group by making our group's animal sound.

urm, i think after that it was a talk given by my old pe teacher! LOL. couldn't recognize her at first. i just thought that she looked really familiar. her talk was kinda entertaining, although i can't really remember what she said. LOL. There was another speaker after that. he gave us a dart board like piece of paper and asked us to indicate the people that's the closest to us(friends, parents, family etc). And there was another handout given during the previous talk. i guess these two handouts really made me think. I've never ever thought of some of these questions. We were suppose to share with the group what's written on our paper. And i'm glad the facil didn't ask me some questions that i didn't really want to share.

we watched part of some movies, "pay it forward" and "pursuit of happiness". pay it forward was really sad and touching! it's the second time i watched the show, but apparently, i fell asleep the first time i watched it, so, i didn't know what happened at the back. haha. pursuit of happiness didn't really touch me though. i think i was either half dead or i didn't quite understand the show. and, white sheep actually fell asleep -.- oh wells... can't blame her lar, i fell asleep the first time i was watching pay it forward too. haha. The session ended at 12 lar. That's sooo late, they are depriving us of sleep!

after that, we went to wash up and sleep. sharon wanted to go sleep with her friends, so i went with her to look for her friends. the school compound was really dark and creepy. they were actually sleeping outside the pac, why can't they just sleep in their given classes -.- it's equally dusty at the pac and it's colder. oh wells... i guess they just wanted to sleep together. i decided to go back to the class. when i was back, people were sleeping already, so i just laid my sleeping bag at some place and tried to sleep. and i couldn't sleep -.- was staring into space for a really long time. started to send random smses. haha. and i even wrote a poem. yar, i know it's kinda random. i started counting stars in my head and i STILL COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP!!!! so i just went back to staring at the ceiling. and finally managed to fall asleep. woke up a few times though. it was really cold! i had to curl myself up before i could actually fall asleep again. i woke up at 5+ and couldn't fall asleep. i was like, either closing my eyes trying to sleep, or staring into space yet again.

when it's finally time to wake up. we started with a game. within our groups we were numbered and placed at different parts of the school/field and we had to perform various tasks. we were suppose to put together a "flower in a pot" and bring it to the teacher, hook our hands together and sing "bah bah black sheep" to him. why did they choose to sing that song!? -.-

ehh... then after that, we had a "talk show" kinda thing. it was really boring. all i heard is a graduate talking about making her choice about studying arts(history) in the uni instead of listening to her mum and study business.

after that, i couldn't really remember what happened -.-

the next thing i remembered is to write something bad(or something like that) people has done to us or err... i can't remember the other thing in one column. and the other column, we had to write down what we're going to do(obviously something good) to that person or whatever. after writing the things down, we had to throw the paper into some fire. i don't know why, but the fire looked really funny to me when i threw my paper in. haha. i guess i'm just going crazy.

oh... and we had to write down things that we're going to achieve in one week's time and to hang it on a leafless tree. after that was mass. and yar, the whole thing FINALLY ENDED!

i don't know if i regret going to the retreat. there were moments where i wished i was home, yet there were moments where i felt that, "ok, this isn't so bad." but one good thing was, the people in the group were really nice.

i realise that my paragraphs are getting shorter and shorter. haha.
that shows that i'm actually frantically trying to finish this post -.-
i'm taking way too long! it's 1 am sharp now. and i actually took 2 hours to write this post. LOL.

i suspect that some of my paragraphs are not making any sense. bleah... but i can't be bothered to check now. so i shall leave it like this for now(or maybe forever)

tomorrow's going to be such a busy day! i have econs retest after school and i have to go to bishan park to film something for my cca, and the rest of my group ends school at 5pm! bleah... it's going to be so late ):
ok, i shall eat my drowsy tablet and sleep. shall not care bout all of these till i wake up.
bye!